i want to walk with you.

Okay. It's been almost a month, in a nutshell, i'm more or less "officially" out of architecture. As poetic as i would like to be, i guess due to the time that has passed already, i've already came to terms with the issue and am no longer able to write the prose as i would like. Ha.

Still, it's surprising what people end up saying when they realise you're leaving. Not all, just some.

I'm amused by Oscar's respond, saddened and almost relieved. I think, he stated something that a lot of people felt but did not or could not express. Perhaps.

Initially, i've been idling around, reading, drinking some tea everyday; trying to figure out my next move. I suppose once you've planned your game, action has to be taken, still, I'm a bit slow on the response. So yup, I've planted some stuff and am doing the whole, experimenting in kitchen bit nowadays. Nothing says idle better than experiments. Cheese souffle tomorrow, let's hope it comes out nicely.

Leaving has allowed me to clearly reflect on the things that i have left behind; as well as the things that are ahead of me. Speaking to some of my most important people has allowed me to hear what my heart has to say. Hearing from the people i've met and known in this one-half year has been something that wavered me a lot.

Aly has been more reassuring than she realises and i guess ultimately what i said to Derek and YunZhi was true, that if i had any regrets, it was the decision to enter Raffles Hall. Architecture has been a wonderful experience and it has opened my eyes to more ideas than before. As annoying as some people were, the loves greatly outweigh the dislikes. I love my people and miss them greatly, then again, i usually do.

I am immensely grateful towards Don. Without his push I doubt I would have taken the plunge to pursue what I want to do. Ironically enough, I knew it from the moment I met him that he would be a strength. Unlike people would you share things with because you couldnt care less about their opinion. He is someone you can poke fun at and share a secret; not because he wouldnt judge, but because he'll choose to support you after it all. He is my mirror to tell me to move on, to not regret following my heart; he is my mirror to remind me to be grateful for this life that has been full of blessings. He is my silly and insensitive friend that has found a heart.

I am grateful Lord, for the angels you have beside me; for the opportunity to head towards something that I love with people that I love still with me. That you would continue to guide me and to give me the foresight to not let go of these chances you have placed in my path. To give me a clear vision and an open heart to not lose the people that I care about and the people that care about me in the coming cloud of confusion. That Lord Jesus, you would continue to hold my hand and walk with me down the pathway that i have chosen.